Links: My darkest secret, the true me.
30 June 2011 | 09:20 | 0 comments
Well, I guess all of us has gone
And the thought of going back to school made us think of
which we will made excuses like
Sorry, I'm didn't update again :( actually, I did. But somehow, I end up closing all the internet :( or giving up posting :/
Singing song with my "hello kitty" karaoke microphone! JKJK >_<
Well, everyone is back to school, yeah? I feel normal about going back to school. It had it's advantages and disadvantages >_< I'm very content that I had a month of holiday already but I wasted it by surfing net and playing audition :( As usually, I'm always late. My aunt always said that I'm a lazy pig and slow tortoise. I'm very very very glad that I have been late for 5-6 times already and I had no detention! I prayed that the rest of the year will be the same thing too ;) I'm hoping I will be lesser lazy for the rest of the year and get better result, yeah ;) I have been reflecting about what I learn in the end of the day and trying not to do the same mistake and I'm swear, it's hard to pay attention in class especially some "funny-looking" teacher came into our class or the teacher speak too soft or the teacher very fierce and etc. Nowadays, it's hard to be teacher hor? Kekeke >_< 心 苦你们! :( I'm very proud of myself not to sleep in class since so far, hohoho ;) I keep wanted to sleep early, but end up sleeping at 11pm or 12am+, awww :(
Continued on about my height,
Singaporean average height
- Boys - 1.706m (5 ft 7in)
- Girls - 1.600m (5ft 3in)
- Age range - 17-25
- A research on 2003
I wanted to post about my deepest fear (height) because I wanted to be frank and someone formspring this to me. I'm 147cm only which was measured on yesterday and I'm already secondary three. It's very obvious I'm short.
A perfect target for people to bully or joke on. Since young, I'm always a joke to everyone. A person who can be look-down on. Nicknames like "shortie", "small girl" and etc was just like my breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Do you all think I like to be short? Everyone has feelings, so do I. I'm imperfect that why I'm short, but can't you grow up and stop being childish?
There's always a saying, "People who laugh on short person will get their retribution by being short in the future and those short person will be taller than them one day." I'm won't ever believe this anymore, really.. A sentence could keep me staying strong, gave a smile to everyone to everyone who say those hurtful words to me and by "laughing at myself" to made everyone not to worry about me. But I wake up from my sense or probably dream, I found out that it's was just a lie or maybe a encouragement? I'm really tired, tired of being shortie, tired of being a joke, tired of putting a smile on my face when I'm not happy at all? I just this probably be a fake smile.
I know that friends around me said that it's was okay being small/short because this made me seems cuter. I really appreciated your encouragement. I don't know how much longer I can hold on to this jokes, I'm scared I'm may.. one day, revealed myself and cried in front of everyone.. I'm exhausted really.. Sick of being short, sick of to be look-down on, sick of envying people, I really hated myself..
If I could not get any taller by this year, I guess, I will be in this height forever.. I always envy people who is naturally tall but I just can't understand they wish that they were short. That's why humans are not happy because they were not content.
Honestly, taller people gain more advantages in my age such as tall people are exude a confidence and dominance that shorter people does not. It is also a fact that taller people have not only a height advantage but also a psychological advantage over their shorter colleagues, which often leads to taller people finding it easier to advance in careers and it social situations.
I tried ways to made me tall, by playing basketball? I fear of being hit by basketball as I wanted to throw the ball infront of me but I end up throwing the ball backwards and it's dropped to the carpark. There's also once, I was just walking past the indoor sport hall and the ball hit right on my face -_- I also tried jumping by skipping rope, I end up falling down and I got a blue-black on my head ._.
I just wished I would grow taller of any normal person's height, isn't too much that I wished for? I really don't know. Maybe some day, I will be tall.. probably. If everyone could open their eyes, concern about what others are feeling, this world would be a much better world, really.
A perfect target for people to bully or joke on. Since young, I'm always a joke to everyone. A person who can be look-down on. Nicknames like "shortie", "small girl" and etc was just like my breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Do you all think I like to be short? Everyone has feelings, so do I. I'm imperfect that why I'm short, but can't you grow up and stop being childish?
There's always a saying, "People who laugh on short person will get their retribution by being short in the future and those short person will be taller than them one day." I'm won't ever believe this anymore, really.. A sentence could keep me staying strong, gave a smile to everyone to everyone who say those hurtful words to me and by "laughing at myself" to made everyone not to worry about me. But I wake up from my sense or probably dream, I found out that it's was just a lie or maybe a encouragement? I'm really tired, tired of being shortie, tired of being a joke, tired of putting a smile on my face when I'm not happy at all? I just this probably be a fake smile.
I know that friends around me said that it's was okay being small/short because this made me seems cuter. I really appreciated your encouragement. I don't know how much longer I can hold on to this jokes, I'm scared I'm may.. one day, revealed myself and cried in front of everyone.. I'm exhausted really.. Sick of being short, sick of to be look-down on, sick of envying people, I really hated myself..
If I could not get any taller by this year, I guess, I will be in this height forever.. I always envy people who is naturally tall but I just can't understand they wish that they were short. That's why humans are not happy because they were not content.
Honestly, taller people gain more advantages in my age such as tall people are exude a confidence and dominance that shorter people does not. It is also a fact that taller people have not only a height advantage but also a psychological advantage over their shorter colleagues, which often leads to taller people finding it easier to advance in careers and it social situations.
I tried ways to made me tall, by playing basketball? I fear of being hit by basketball as I wanted to throw the ball infront of me but I end up throwing the ball backwards and it's dropped to the carpark. There's also once, I was just walking past the indoor sport hall and the ball hit right on my face -_- I also tried jumping by skipping rope, I end up falling down and I got a blue-black on my head ._.
I just wished I would grow taller of any normal person's height, isn't too much that I wished for? I really don't know. Maybe some day, I will be tall.. probably. If everyone could open their eyes, concern about what others are feeling, this world would be a much better world, really.
